Maybe, just maybe....

I started working. I am not going to go into details about what I do because its rarely kosher to blog about your workplace. Its a slippery slope that I am not going to get into. However, I will say that I love and thoroughly enjoy what I do. I was at a point in my work life where I thought I wouldn't ever have a career because thus far nothing made me happy and intellectually stimulated me at the same time; I thought it was a balance that just didn't happen. I could never find that happy medium of fulfillment. I think I have found it. No, I don't have my dream job and its not where I expected- but surprisingly its a good fit. I didn't think I would find a fit until I met the fantasy. And maybe the fantasy isn't out there. I am starting to become okay with that.

As much as I have struggled with it, I have really enjoyed being at home with the girls. I didn't want to end and it ended rather abruptly. I got the offer on a Thursday to start on Monday. I thought I would be anxiety-ridden, overwhelmed and overall have a difficult time coping. I am not though. I was starting to think the balanced working mom scenario was a myth and a lie people told themselves to cope with their situation, or whatever the driving need was to work- financial or otherwise. However, I am finding maybe as women we CAN have it all. Maybe, we aren't being fooled into thinking so but that it is reality. Maybe, just maybe, we CAN have the well-adjusted children, the 'perfect' home, the spouse/partner, and a career that makes us feel like a valued, intelligent autonomous person. Maybe, its a reality.

I am hoping something doesn't happen to burst my bubble, because so far all is good. I didn't know life could be this good while working. It reminds me of that saying that sometime someone is going to walk into your life and then you will know why it never worked with anyone else. That is how I feel about my job. I have never felt this way before, and now I know and I am at peace with opportunities I have passed up or that didn't work out.

However, I cannot help but be reminded of words from my favorite girl- Marilyn Monroe, "A career is wonderful, but you can't curl up with it on a cold night..."